Wow! It’s kinda been awhile… oops. Quick life update: over the past weeks, I’ve graduated high school (whoot whoot), worked at a kids camp, went on a Costa Rica mission trip, worked, and spent time with so many people trying to soak up their goodness before I leave! And now I’m waiting in excitement for training camp in one day!!!
Costa Rica was my fourth high school mission trip with Ascent and I’ve absolutely loved all of them! Each of the trips has revealed different things to me. I went into the trip this year kind of thinking about it as a “pre-World Race” trip in that I was practicing packing super light and using some of the fun things that I had bought for the Race. In Costa Rica, I feel that God really made it clear to me that the work we were doing was what I needed to do in my own life outside of just one week every summer. He gave me a confirmation that the World Race IS what I am supposed to be doing this next year and it just felt so good to know that in my heart. I knew that God was calling me to do the World Race for a while now, but on some level, I was waiting for some sort of a sign or of reassurance and in Costa Rica, that’s really what He was able to give me!
After returning from Costa Rica and looking forward to all that’s coming up things kind of seemed big and scary but I strangely don’t feel very worried. I feel an overwhelming sense of confidence in this decision that I have made and through this confidence I have learned to give my worries to God! I know that He will take care of those worries and I know that the Lord will use me and live through me in these upcoming adventures.
Knowing that so many amazing things lay ahead, it’s so hard for me to just wait for them to come. I tend to be a fairly impatient person and I also get very very overly excited for just about everything that I do… not a very good combination when waiting for fun things to come. I’m so so excited for training camp and I feel like the past few days I’ve just been in some kind of a lul and kind of an in-between stage of exciting things. I just want to speed things up sometimes so that I can get the best parts but I know that waiting can be good sometimes and I probably need to learn to be a bit more patient.
I kinda make it hard on myself sometimes because I get so so excited for everything and I wait soooo long for them and then they happen and I guess I just kinda forget to enjoy those moments fully and then they just go by so fast and then it’s all over and I almost feel sad. It’s like remembering being a kid and everything else just seemed so much more fun and everything was a huge deal but then you grow up and things that used to be so so fun and crazy are just kinda normal and just pass by like every other day. I think I just need to take a step back and slow down and enjoy every little thing that’s happening around me. I hope that I can soak up all that training camp has to offer and really live in the moment while I’m there.
There’s always a lot of waiting in my life but it’s all waiting for good things to come and it has definitely taught me some patience. Now the wait for training camp is almost over and I am extremely excited to meet everyone in my squad!!
Well, that’s all that’s on my mind at this point! Thanks for reading!
