I had decided to focus on all the activities that lead up to graduation. I had numerous Track events, Soccer games and Graduation activities. As much as this trip was on my mind, I had to get through the non-stop busyness of life before I could really focus on IT. My mom kind of gave me permission to procrastinate. Well all activities came to an end and graduation passed. I found myself wanting just a little break…but this trip is looming. Not in the bad sense, but it is hanging over my head. Doctors appointments, shots, paperwork…a never ending list of things that need to happen to prepare someone to be overseas for 9 months. I have LOTS of gear to purchase as well, and to my surprise (although I don’t know why) cutlery was on the list.
So, I finally did get my “support” letter written and out the door. It is no small feat to raise funds for travel and living expenses for 9 months, but I am certain God has placed this on peoples hearts, and he will provide through them. That said, I really am in the trenches now trying to prepare. My first “shopping” trip is this weekend. I have been working several jobs and plan to use that money towards the three page list of items I need for survival, including an “in-frame” backpack…what ever that means (I have so much to learn), a sleeping bag (for 35* weather…what???) and a sleeping pad. This list just makes everything so much more REAL.
So, I fall asleep at night half excited half scared out of my mind. My summer is somewhat of a purgatory…just in the sense that my entire life is “on hold” until I return. I am so excited about how God will use me. It is one thing to talk to someone here (USA) about the love of Christ, when they have heard so much (superficially), but then I am imagining quite another to share with someone…the wonder and amazing concept of being loved by the creator of the universe…FOR THE FIRST TIME. I cannot possibly imagine what it is like to not know the love of Christ, or at least in theory. I am ready for God to use me…and change me. Now I just wait and pray.
