I'm not about that fundraising life. I'm not. It's a place I've struggled with being since my acceptance on the World Race. It's uncomfortable. It's giving up control. It's screaming, "I can't do this by myself!" It's being dependent. It's everything the world has taught us is unacceptable, undesirable, looked down upon, and a place that we need to fight not to be in. It's a place where I've been pushed to be in and have learned so much in throughout countless situations while on this journey for the last 6 months. Not surprisingly, it's what I wrote my first blog about. I didn't think I was enough or ready for this whole World Race thing. To be honest I wasn't.
BUT GOD was and is.
I remember hearing those two beautiful words multiple times in Scripture. BUT GOD. All throughout Scripture people continued to face unsurmountable circumstances where there was no hope. Then those two little words changed everything. BUT GOD. I love when I can take these words and directly apply them to whatever is my current hopeless situation.
I'm not "good" enough to go tell people around the world about Christ, BUT GOD is.
I have no control over if my words/actions truly impact those I come in contact with, BUT GOD does.
I'm not strong enough to watch families suffer in poverty everyday, BUT GOD is.
I'm not confident enough to lead my 6 teammates, BUT GOD is.
I'm not a good enough speaker to share my testimony or preach/teach, BUT GOD is.
and lastly,
I'm not able to raise $16,000, BUT GOD IS.
So here's the skinny. The nitty gritty. The bottom line.
God has brought my fundraising to about $12,000. My last and final deadline is January 1, 2015 and $4,000 is the magic number. I have been unbelieveably blessed by so many. I want you all to know how incredibly thankful and grateful I am for your sacrifices and all you've done to support me in various ways. God has used my family, friends, complete strangers in Wal-mart, and anonymous donors to leave my jaw dropped on more than one occasion.
And now I ask you. Yes, YOU. I boldly ask you to partner with me in this. I'm asking you to get a little uncomfortable with me as we see what God has in store for these next 5 months. I'm not in control. I'm am completely dependent, and I am trusting that God's got this. Just a drop in the bucket, right?
So yeah, I'm not about that fundraising life, but I am about that BOLD life. I am about that overwhelming CONFIDENCE in God and being exactly where He wants me. I'm about that life of ABANDONMENT. And yeah, I'm more than ready to let another "BUT GOD" come into this situation and completely change EVERYTHING. Are you ready to see that too?
You can be a massive part of this by supporting me. Anything and everything helps. Besides, let's be honest…we both know you forgot to send me a birthday present this year. But seriously, thank you for taking the time to read this and catch a glimpse of some things God has been teaching me. If you would like to donate just click the "Support me!" tab at top/bottom of this page. Thank you again in advance and I wish you all a Merry Christmas from Malawi!
