One thing that I have been trying to do this month is pray dangerous prayers. My dangerous prayer is to learn what it means to be dependant on the Lord. I am realizing quickly that I am a more independent person than I realized, and that affects my relationships with everyone in my life including God. As team leader I have accepted the fact that when it comes matters of the team I will depend on the Lord for guidance, but He isn’t stopping there…
Last week I was feeling under the weather, but not terrible. Mostly just tired, and weak. So, stubborn as I am I was going to work regardless, and spent the day dragging up the mountains of Haiti from house to house. Spending most of the time at each house sitting, taking pictures and playing with the little kids because I didn’t feel like I had the strength to hammer. But I battled through the day depending on my own strength thinking my ailments weren’t worthy of help. We arrived back at our beach compound just as it began to rain. Every other day the rain came and went within an hour, so we took cover under a building. The best part about the rain here is that it cools off the day, but this day I was cold… not a good sign in Haiti even in the rain. Through my attempt to keep my self warm my teammates noticed something was up. Me being stubborn and not wanting to miss out on the fun that my team was having out on the porch I refused to do anything different, but they wouldn’t have it. They made me move inside with a dry blanket and wrapped me up. As the rain continued to poor down they fed me dinner, they made me a bed. My fever was no longer a possibility it was a reality. As my cough was getting worse they planned the best way to get me back to my tent. They sent me to bed at around 6:30, so that I would get some rest.
The next morning I was feeling a little silly about how well they took care of me, but I started to read. I read Matthew 5:3-10, and read some of what Oswald Chambers had to say about “blessed are the poor in spririt…” and how we come to a place where we realize that “Lord, I cannot even begin to do it .” As we are here to be Christ to the people of the countries we enter we are also to be Christ to one another, and I had to learn about depending on the Lord for more than just the matters of the team. I am still learning and they are still teaching me, but they have blessed me by showing me the Christ in them. Thanks Team Hind’s Feet! Love you guys lots!
