I cannot even begin to tell you the number of times this past week I have talked about my future…
Even though I still have 6 months left on the Race before I need to worry about that.
But, why have I been thinking so much about my future lately?
Even just one year ago, I was dead set on graduating, finding a job, and having stability. Establishing myself in an area and being happy living there the rest of my life.
But, what if that is not what the rest of my life holds?
It is funny to look back on that person I was a year ago compared to who I have become today. I don’t even recognize myself.
I have spent my last 5 months living in 5 different countries, about 17 different cities, and sleeping in about 31 different places.
How is that for stability?
Not to say that the rest of my life will look like this…
But, I have become comfortable with the idea that a stable life of comfort may not be what God has for me.
It actually excites me to think about my future now and what it may hold.
I have a desire for God to use my life in BIG ways to impact the WORLD!
I ask Him to give me a PASSION and a DREAM to pursue with my life!
So…
If that life requires me to live a life that knows no stability…
To live in another country for the rest of my life…
Living in the United States …
On the front lines impacting lives myself …
In an office to make it possible for someone else to be on the front lines…
Married with a family…
Single…
Honestly, some of these things are hard to swallow.
I want to have a family and be on the front lines to impact the world… whether that be in the US or somewhere else.
(God, if that place is somewhere else… please make sure I am located close to an ice cream shop and one of these nice smoothie ladies who only charge $1 for a fresh fruit smoothie…)
The future is exciting…
I know that God will use me in BIG ways if I live my life in COMPLETE surrender to Him and the things He puts on my HEART.
So God… please give me that DREAM to chase… and make it BIGGER than any plan I could ever IMAGINE for MYSELF.
Koy, the Teen Challenge director in Cambodia said…
“When we step out to do the ridiculous, God will perform the miraculous.”
That is what I want of my future… Something RIDICULOUS, where God performs the MIRACULOUS!
