See Part I of this blog to read from the beginning…
I was set up with an appointment for my second interview for squad leading. The few days prior, I was feeling more and more uncertain about the prospect of leading a new squad. I hadn’t seen a “job description” of a squad leader, and therefore had little idea if I could do the “job.”
This year, I have been reading Oswald Chamber’s “My Utmost for His Highest,” and earlier in the process, I read this:
“We have an idea that God is leading us to a particular end, a desired goal; He is not. The question of getting to a particular end is a mere incident. What we call the process, God calls the end.”
Before I had read this passage, I was praying about whether squad leading for the World Race was where God wanted me to be, or if just being ready to squad lead was where He wanted me. Maybe He was preparing me for a different purpose, and I told Him that where He would lead, I would follow.
The night before my second interview, I laid in bed wondering what on earth I would say when the question, “Why do you want to squad lead?” came up because the current answer was, “I don’t know if I do.” I prayed and told God that I trusted His leading. I knew for certain that God had called me to apply for squad leading. There was no doubt in my mind of that fact, but my spirit felt less certain about actually leading a squad.
I told Him that if the door for squad leading should close, it would close during that interview, but that He would provide the new door for me to walk through. I wasn’t going to be left empty handed after this interview. My logic was, what was the point of the process if not to get me somewhere else? Somewhere that I hadn’t thought of for myself, or would have been more obscure. Being left without direction and more questions than answers on what’s next was somewhere I was determined not to be, and I let Him know. Did I mention I’ve been praying for more boldness?
During the interview, I said my goals for leading—being able to practice my Spiritual gift of discipleship, and desires to work one-on-one with individuals and build a deep relationship with them. Then the question was asked:
Have you ever thought about leading a Passport trip?
Me? No.
I mean. No.
What is Passport, again?
But I felt my spirit leap at this proposition. And as the program was explained, it seemed to align more with my desires and giftings.
Less than one week later, and after one more interview, I received the news that I was accepted to lead a Passport trip leaving at the end of January 2015!
Passport is a mission program through Adventures in Missions, similar to the World Race. Its participants are between 18 and 22, and we’ll travel together to one country for a duration of three months. I’ll be home by the end of April!
My team will be from 6-12 people and I will have a co-leader who has participated in Passport/World Race in the past.
At the current time, I do not know where my team will go (Latin America, Africa, Asia).
I do know that I need to raise $1,800 in order to leave at the end of January—this entire amount must be raised by that time. The good news is that I have already raised $100 from overflow of the World Race fundraising! Please consider joining me in this new adventure by clicking the Support Me link on the left!
