Unprepared: something you do not really want to feel right before you head to 11 different countries within a year. But this is how I felt as I packed up life in Indianapolis, packed up my gear into a 70 liter pack, and headed to DC for team leader training (I'm a leader for Team Agapetos) and launch. And I wouldn't want to feel any other way. Let me explain.
I am a procrastinator. I have tried to fight it, but it's just who I am. So it came as no surprise that my last few days at home consisted of me running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Very very little sleep. A lot of help from my family and friends to get everything done. And though I was stressed (and grumpy, sorry family) at times, I had such a peace about it all. I didn't worry about not having absolutely everything I would need for a year packed (God will provide what I need when I need it). I didn't worry about not knowing my responsibilities as a team leader (I just need to let Him lead and be myself). I didn't worry about not knowing when we would be leaving the country (I'm surrounded by God and 60 incredible N-Squad brothers and sisters, what else matters?).
Being prepared requires you to know details. Lots of them. Right? Wrong. I've been shown throughout this WR prep that I am unprepared, but God is prepared. He is all I need to get through this Race. I can do it on my own strength, but I sure as heck don't want to. I want Him to go before me, behind me, beside me.
Launch was such a blessing. And now as I get ready to board the plane for Ecuador in 7.8 seconds, I thank God for the work He has done in me up until this point, and am pumped for what He is about to do.
Selah,
Kayla
