For these first 4 months of the race, God has taken my
identity and done a dramatic shift. He took the person that I had created
myself to be over the course of my life and walked me through some major
transitions that will forever change the direction I move in. He showed me the difference between who
I thought I was and who He made me to be. He taught me that I am a confident
woman and a bold daughter of His. He developed the gifts in me that I had been
using in worldly ways to now bring Him honor and glory.
Why the shift? Some of you readers would say you thought I
was a pretty good person prior to leaving. Well allow me to let you in on a few
things. First of all, compare only to Christ when you are looking at someone
because none of us match up and in fact we are all equal in the sight of the
Lord. For me, I needed a change because I had been listening to some distinct
lies of the enemy and allowing those lies to identify me.
I’m going to get a little personal here so if you are one of
those readers that might say TMI (too much information), here is the chance for
you to stop reading. You might get offended.
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Okay so the rest of you want to get personal with me. There
are several lies that come into our minds from the enemy that if we aren’t
careful, we will fall into believing. I am case and point.
I fell into the lie that my voice was not good enough or
strong enough to be heard.
I fell into a lie that ministry was this thing that good
churchy people do.
I fell into the lie that you have to have it all together
for God to use you.
I also fell into the lie that smoking pot will bring me to a
higher spiritual realm and closer to God.
I fell into the lie that the things I allowed myself to
watch didn’t affect my mind or my character.
I fell into the lie that going to church every Sunday is
what it means to be a good Christian.
I fell into the lie that I needed to keep my weaknesses and
my issues hidden in from my family and friends.
I fell into the lie that I should fear man’s opinion because
it meant more than God’s.
I fell into the lie that I am/was a disappointment to people
and to the Lord.
And I fell into the lie that it’s okay to keep God out of
certain areas of my life.
**quick side note** A friend told me this analogy. Your
house is your life and each room represents a different part of your life. God
isn’t in a room, He is the air that fills the house.
The stories go deeper but a blog is a blog and not a book. I
write these things to you to tell you it’s okay to not be okay. God loves you where
ever you are and whoever you are without condition. But also, I want you to
recognize the lies that might be keeping you from reaching the fullness of
God’s love. When we sin, when we listen to the world or the lies of the enemy,
it pulls us away from the Lord. So I ask you now, to pay attention and take
your thoughts captive. Don’t listen to the world no matter how loud it is
screaming at you and don’t listen to Satan’s lies. Seek the Father and trust in
Him alone. Allow the Lord to tell you who you are rather than the world. He is
good and He loves you! You are wanted and you are accepted in the midst of your
mess.
