From the moment I entered into Haiti, I knew the Lord had big things in store for the month. God used Haiti to make parts of my heart become more alive. I can see him developing His plan for me by giving me deeper excitement and passions for things.
I went into the month in a weird place in my walk with the Lord; not bad, just weird. I was studying the word, worshiping Him, and spending quite time with Him; however, I didn’t feel like I was growing in the way I wanted to. I saw where I wanted to go and grow in during the race, but didn’t see as much progress towards that as I would like. I saw the people around me being pushed out of their comfort zones and growing daily. I knew He had big things for me, but I wasn’t seeing it fully.
Where is my growth Lord?
When will I see the fruit of the labor?
Why not me?
Where are you?
Do you see me?
These were the thoughts running through my head.
Sunday during church the message was about the love of God. I asked the Lord, “Show me your love God. I want to feel your love overwhelmingly.”
He also posed the question to me, “If my plan doesn’t include a husband, children, etc., would you still be okay with my plan?” I don’t think the Lord was asking me to give any of those desires up, but He was having me evaluate my level of trust in HIm.
Do I believe that His plan for me really is good?
That night, I felt like the Lord wanted me to spend some time on the roof with Him laying under the stars. One night in the DR, I was doing a similar thing and I prayed that the Lord would show me a shooting star. While I was laying there I saw one shoot across the sky. During my time with the Lord that night on the roof in Haiti, I prayed for a similar thing.
While I was laying there with the Lord, I brought up to Him how I felt like I was falling behind. He answered in return, “Kayla, I see you. I asked you this morning about my plan because I want you to see that I have the best intentions for you. I am not going to let you down. You are where I want you. I see you. I know you. I love you through and through”.
The only response I could give was worship. He didn’t delay; He was showing me his overwhelming love by speaking into me right where I was at. As I was worshiping on the roof, I open my eyes. Right in front of my face along the horizon—a shooting star. The Lord said, “What did I tell you? I heard your request, just as I hear your other requests, and I am giving them to you.”
Not only do I believe that the Lord sees me, but He also sees Haiti.
I asked the Lord one day as we were driving through Haiti how He saw the country. I wanted to see what He saw when He looked at Haiti. Not even a minute later, I looked out the side of the bus and saw a church with a large cross down in the valley. Haiti is claimed for the Lord. Even though there is voodoo and destruction in the country, it is still the Lord’s.
So what does the Lord see?
He saw me on a rooftop in Haiti.
He sees Haiti as His people.
He sees you right where you are at.
And what is His response?
Overwhelming love for me.
Overwhelming love for Haiti.
Overwhelming love for you.
SUPPORT UPDATE: I am currently at 13, 300. I still need $3, 665 to be fully fundraised by April 30th! I have loved the World Race so far and the Lord has taught me an incredible amount already. Help me stay on the Race by helping me become fully funded! Thank you!
