The last day of debrief came and went, and I still have no idea what comes next. Month 8 debrief is meant to be a time of seeking direction for after the race. There was a point I believed the race would narrow down my passions, the ideas God has given me, and the countries in which I could call home. Yet, it has done anything but that. I now have a different passion for every place we have been, I have ideas for every ministry we have experienced, and for ones we have not. I have come to realize I could call any place home.
So, where does that put me?
Well, I have no idea, and I am learning to be ok with that. Every bit of me has reached a point where I don’t want to make this decision without God. I want to seek after something that exists solely to bring him glory, thus, it must be beyond anything I could imagine.
“Anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father.”
(John 14:16)
I believe his direction will come to fruition in the moment I must seek his direction everyday in order to follow through with the passions he has given me. So, I wait. I wait for his direction as to what I should do after the race.
Yet, in that I also move.
Everyday I find myself seeking his direction for the day-to-day. Seeking to discern his voice from my own. Seeking to better understand his heart, so that I might be an image of his love.
Christ was everything but logical in the eyes of society and the powers of humanity, and he is standing as our representative to do even greater things than he in order that all the glory would be given to God!
A verse I have recited since elementary ages proclaims:
“Thy words is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.”
(Psalm 119:105)
Imagine walking down a street in a village with a single candle lit lamp. The light is warm and soft. It is a security, yet sparks curiosity. You can stand in a single location in which the light currently shines, and spin in circles as you become secure with your surrounding, or you can choose to act on the embers of the first spakr. The light will always shine the same distance, but you demonstrate trust through the action of stepping forward:
“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.”
(42:16)
and further:
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze”
(43:2)
This is the direction I have, and the only direction I need. God has called me to seek complete surrender in him. To surrender finances, to surrender the comfort of friendships and family, to surrender time, to surrender my limitations and gifting. I seek a surrender in which every move I make requires his continuous direction and provision.
PRAYER
That I would discern and follow God’s direction, so that he would receive all the glory!
That I would continue to seek the direction of the Holy Spirit daily never loosing site of the reason he has me here.
That every one of my squad mates and our leaders would be led by the spirit daily and encouraged by our community. That we would stand as a prophetic voice of our father’s love to all the nations!
Join me in praying this prayer over our squad, our leaders, our mentors, our ministry contacts, and the Church as one:
“And I pray that we, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide, how long, how deep and how high is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge. So, that we might be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”
(Ephesians 3: 16-19)
