The time is here. I have spent countless hours over the last several months blog stalking, watching videos, reviewing packing lists, and purchasing various gear. I have poured over books and had numerous conversations with mentors, friends, and previous world racers. I have packed my bag, taken everything out, and repacked it again………….. and again………….. and again. I have gone through a roller coaster ride of emotions. Happy, sad, excited, anxious, overwhelmed, overjoyed and then circled back through, several times. After all these months, the time is here……….
LAUNCH!!!!!!!!!
I'm all packed up and ready to go! Last night was my last night sleeping in my own bed for the next 11 months. This morning was the last morning I could have a cup of coffee and watch the news with my dad before he went to work. Today will be my last trip to Portland to go shopping with my mom. My last time to cuddle on the couch with my dog. My last time being alone for the next 11 months. So many "lasts" encompass my next day and a half. However, so many 'firsts' are in my future.
My first time to love on an orphan.
My first time to look into the eyes of a prostitute and tell her that she has worth in the eyes of the King.
My first time to live in real community.
My first time to be completely open and vulnerable with my team.
My first time to lead people to Christ.
My first time to learn what it truly means to be selfless.
My first time to bring healing to the nations.
My first time to love without holding anything back.
Yes, goodbyes are hard. Thinking about things that I will not be able to do again until I return next year or people I will not see can be sad. BUT thinking about all of the amazing things that God will do over the next year out shines all the sadness. Focusing on what Jesus is calling me into now, at this time brings more hope and excitement than I can even comprehend. I am sad to be leaving, but my excitement for the next year overcomes that sadness and I have found joy! Look out world! I'm on my way because…….
Adventure awaits!
"Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,"
Philippians 3:13
