So… things can get hard sometimes. And I think it’s time for a bit of cold, hard honesty.
God has been testing my trust. Sooo many doors have been closing here back home.
Every time I try to move out of my grandparents’ home, something comes up. My car isn’t working. I just lost my job. My computer broke.
I feel like I’m just stuck in this rut, and God just keeps piling more and more to bury me in it. I know He doesn’t do anything without reason, but it can be hard to see what exactly He’s trying to get me to do. It can be hard not to feel like a failure.
I feel pretty disoriented, and I’m not sure where to go from here. I’m not sure what God is trying to tell me. So I need to take this time to try to learn how to better hear Him and obey.
This is totally a lesson in trust, which is one of my biggest problems. And of course God knows that. And of course, He chooses this to be the first big lesson He teaches me on my journey. I KNOW it’s a blessing… it’s just hard to feel that it is a blessing.
I’m trying to stay positive. This is for the best. =)
“All human wisdom is contained in these two words- ‘Wait and Hope’.” ~ The Count of Monte Cristo
