As we move into the new year and the time of resolutions, a word that I am embracing this year is Trust. I have always been the type of person that likes to have a plan, have every detail worked out, and I like to keep to that plan. Whenever that plan seems to go off course or not play out exactly how I wanted it, I can get really stressed out. Over the year, I started learning to let go of some of that control, but this long time habit has not been completely shaken. One phrase I will always connect with my dad is “we’ll play it by ear.” There was no line more polar opposite to the way I did things. How could you possibly jump headfirst into the unknown without a plan? Then, I realized that’s exactly what I have signed up for this year.
I am about to embark on a 9 month journey that is going to be filled with daily unknowns. I think of the disciples in these moments. They dropped everything they knew to follow Jesus and then spent the rest of their lives traveling around and teaching others. The disciples spent every moment after that first meeting with Jesus trusting that they would have somewhere to sleep that night or food to eat for that day. Everyday presented a new challenge and they trusted Jesus would get them through it. So I enter this year, trusting like those early disciples that the Lord will provide for me. I will trust that he will bring peace in this fast paced life, discernment for decisions and my future, for fundraising, and for safety and health on the race.
I want to be present in everything that happens this year and I want to enjoy the unexpected moments; the things not planned. I want to fully give in to the mindset that the Lord has me through the expected and the unexpected. This year I want to learn what it really means to trust God. To let go of the control and allow God’s perfect plan to play out. I am starting to learn there is something beautiful about not having a plan. The Lord already has the plan and knows what my future looks like. When we choose to trust in God and to remain near him, we flourish. One of my greatest resolutions is to flourish. To take every moment to grow. 2019 is full of so many mile stones. This is the year I will graduate, I will turn 18, and I will embark on one of the greatest challenges of my life- the World Race. I am so excited to experience the world and to learn each day what it means to Trust.
So here I am today Lord, asking for your guidance in the year ahead. Help me to learn to Let go of my life and allow you to use me for your kingdom. Help me to learn to trust completely in you and the plan you have for my life. Amen.
~May you all have a prosperous year!
-Kaya Mullen
