This month has already been such a good month of self discovery and how God sees me. I didn’t realize how the lies of the enemy had their hands in my life until I got on the race. He told me I was unworthy, unloved, unimportant, and unseen. The Lord had other ideas though. He wanted me to know just how loved I was and threw 53 squad mates, his word, and his creation to affirm that. At debrief, we shared as women how we all struggle with similar thoughts of not being enough. We decided that we would make a list of 10 daily delarations, and would memorize Psalms 139, which talks so much about how God sees and created us. I have been walking into that this month and have started to really feel seen.
I was sitting in a Hot Spring on my adventure day this month, and I had my body half submerged, floating on the water, the sound of my squadmates singing praises to the father. I stared up at the stars and the mountains around me. I watched as God created a beautiful shooting star just for us. He painted the stars across the sky. He named and number each and every one of them. He, in his vastness and sovereignty created each of these stars. The creator of the universe did that, and guess what, he created me too. He named and called me. As I stared up at the stars, the sound faded, amd all I could hear was the Lord. He shared with me some of the things he calls me. He calls me pricessita, cherished, beloved, daughter. He calls me beautiful, enough, and never too much. He calls me his, and he calls me seen. He sees me. I created a list of all of these things and more and I have a feeling he is going to spend the rest of my life sharing with me all the things he calls me.
