It’s incredible to see how The Lord takes emotional hurts from our hearts, especially when we give it to Him willingly. As humans we obtain a good amount of hurt because we are broken. I have heard people’s stories around the world. Stories that contain pain but also redemption. And what blows me away every time is the emotional healing The Lord provides for His children.
Last Sunday I was prepared to speak at church. During worship I quickly recognized Spirit doing something in the room. I asked What He wanted me to do and that’s when He switched my topic on me. Awww man! If you know me, you know I’m not really a huge fan of speaking In front of church. It’s not really my gifting, and I usually say something ridiculous and stumble over words. However, Jesus could care less about that. So when I love to feel prepared, he chuckles and challenges me by giving me a different topic to speak on right before going on stage. But hey, when he speaks I listen.
So I go up on stage and make an awkward joke about bringing my notes up with me when they were worthless. Haha I shared a bit of my testimony that through out my life Jesus has been teaching me about forgiveness and grace. I often had to forgive the people closest to me and it hurt. That forgiveness is a choice and a process. That when we don’t forgive, we carry this burden that’s heavy. A burden that usually produces bitterness and pain. It isn’t worth it!!! Instead we can give this burden to Jesus. To let go of the pain and truly experience this remarkable freedom in Him.
I just looked at the faces before me and said Jesus wants to do some emotional healing in you today. He wants to take that burden for you. It may seem impossible at the moment, but I sense you’re sick of having to deal with this!
I asked the pastor to play some worship music and that if people wanted prayer to come to the front where my team was waiting for them. Then it just got real! Before I knew it the room was balling, people were on their knees, my team was praying for people throughout the church, and ladies began dancing with joy with their new found freedom! My eyes filled with tears because of Christ’s faithfulness. That he loves us with a fierceness that pursues. After praying for people, I went and danced with a lady because heck I wanted to party at the Heavenly gates too!!!
Three days later I learn some news from a loved one that required my forgiveness. How ironic right?! This news hurt and caught me off guard. At first I just felt numb and then pain crept in. I wanted to sit and feel the feels, but I knew I needed my Jesus. “Okay Katy, let’s walk this out now.” So I put on worship music, laid my pain at his feet and sat in His lap as I cried it out. Asked Him to help me zoom out and see the bigger picture. Back in Rwanda I began this journey to “zoom out” rather then sit in my hurt, and it was a gift to see my growth since then. The Lord quickly revealed that this was a small act in a big picture and that it was actually an honor that He trusts me to go through it. I get to give the gift of forgiveness and grace to others because He forgives me endlessly! I get to endure, I get to have perseverance, I get to come to Him for help, I get to deepen my relationship! Whattttt?!! That would never be my perspective without the freedom He provides me.
