As I laid in my hammock 9 feet in the air trying to sleep, I listened to the monks chant in rhythm… The whole night! I kept thinking “they have to be on the last verse” or “don’t they need a water break or something” I also pictured them like Avatar status swaying around sitting cross legged. Yea I know it was the middle of the night and I was wide awake! But as I wished I was sleeping, I looked up to the fathomless stars and huge galaxy and felt convicted. These monks spend their lives devoted to memorization and obedience with nothing in return, and here I am serving the King of Kings, the one True God who created me and the gnarly galaxy above me!!! And what does my devotion look like? Could I even call it devotion? The past week I’ve been diving into what it looks like to die to myself. Sheesh how to achieve that? Putting my selfish desires and needs to rest and resurrecting the Katy God created me to be. Not my identity but His. Coming on the race I had expectations I didn’t even realize I had. Expectations of what God was going to do, what I was going to be like, what my team was going to look like. When I began to realize things we’re going differently i was stumped. I honestly felt heavy until Christ revealed I was talking about dying to myself but not taking the steps to really do so. It has been a process to throw away the old expectations and live in complete trust of where I am, who I’m with, what I’m doing is all in Gods perfect plan. So now I start my day with surrendering. “We surrender to a God, who surrendered everything for us” (-Restless) Only with His strength am I able to let go of myself. Trusting in Him and walking in obedience, obvi I mess up. I am human, and learning to have grace for myself and bask in His freedom he died to give me. As my title says, devotion the heart in motion, I am ready to get my devotion in to motion. I also have to sing my title like I’m That’s So Raven. Idk it just comes naturally being this weird 😉 hahah
Giggle facts:
1) Scene: it was 4:45 am. I’m cracking eggs with my headlamp on… One is difficult to crack… All of a sudden it explodes all over me and I see black in the bowl.. I’m laughing then I take a wiff… Gagging. Lots of gaggin. Oh lawd I had rotten egg all over me. I rush to the well and bucket showered with my clothes on. (Thank you Sam for holding my soap. You rock)
2) Slept in a hammock for the first time, “top bunk” aka above someone else. Like to say I officially have nailed the tuck and roll to get in the high hammock. Thank you thank you.
3) I played volleyball against the ripped village men. We did win the last match. And if I need a husband I think I got proposed to 4 times. I nailed a guy in the head with a serve, whoops.
4) Played soccer (football) with the village children… May have taken out the principal of the school. Okay I did, really bad. But God made me like a tank, it’s not my fault.
5) Asians think we’re fat. It’s hilarious. I mean, we kinda of are compared to them. But children hid in my shadow during our soccer game… And my host made a joke about me eating children… Hahahaha so I think I need to lay off all this rice. Nawww, I love rice too much.
Prayer request:
-Healing for our team, we have had colds this last week.
-Kampong Chnang only has 10 believers. That the name of Jesus and his love would spread like wild fire among the village.
-Funds for the Cornerstone literacy center building and staff house in the village. If interested… You can donate online to that project. Basically funding the word of God to reach this unreached village. 😉 www.cornerstonecambodia.org
-For me to serve my team as they need
-and don’t you stop praying for my sweating condition. I have a problem. It just won’t stop guys. Like I’m worst then the boys on my team. Lawd, help me! Haha
Love you all!
