Shopping brings out the worst in me. As much as I love spending money that I don’t have, buying clothes is not my favorite activity. I’m currently in one of my favorite stores, anthropology, and it’s heaven to me in here. I had a handful of half priced clothing and skipped in to the dressing room. I tried on my first shirt and was like yeah I look pretty decent. Then, I tried on a dress. It did not look good at all. Usually i would be really mad. I’d get really aggravated and be ready to leave. This time was different. I looked in the mirror and was like oh well. I thought to myself, why am I going to mentally distroy myself because of one piece of clothing. That’s dumb.
Self-hate is so real. I do it all the time. I’m not comfortable in my own skin at all. Well, till today really. I am determined to have a self-love mindset. If I want to go run 3 miles, guess what.. I’ll go run those 3 miles. If I want to eat some wings, I’m going to eat those wings. I refuse to beat myself up because of this body I’m in. It’s just a body. I choose to love myself and be happy with what i look like.
I want to be fully committed to myself. Fully committed to the decisions I make and have made. Fully committed to God and what he has planned for me.
I will choose me this year.
I hope you do the same.
