Hello.. HELLO? Kat are you here?
Have you ever been so lost in your daydreams that you forget to live life, right now? I have. Recently, I realized that it was a bigger problem than I originally thought it was. I would get sucked into what I want life to look like after the Race, or who I might end up dating one day.
One of my favorite movies is The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. If you haven’t seen it, you should. This guy Walter Mitty gets caught daydreaming all the time. He dreams of a life where he is bold and adventurous. He dreams about dating his co-worker and the ways he could woo her.
Later in the movie, he is living out this incredible journey to find a photographer who has a picture he needs so he doesn’t lose his job. He ends up turning into someone better than he could have ever daydreamed about.
I found myself in the same position as my pal Walter Mitty.
I was daydreaming about a better life. A life where I was exactly who I wanted to be. I was bold. I was adventurous. I was desired.
The Lord pointed out that I was stuck in my dreams of the future. I was stuck in a fantasy world. I have wanted togo on The World Race for years and here I am, wishing it all away. I wanted my life to be as cool and purpose filled as it is right now.
I shared with my team about my struggle. I honestly didn’t know what to do; but if I didn’t do something about it now, I would end up wishing my whole life away and then I would be dead. I would have kept dreaming about the next season of life and not lived a single day of this life the Lord has given me.
My team challenged me in a very real way. To give up Pinterest (ahhhhhhhhh not my Pinterest) and then to see what it would be like to not get the things I have dreamt about. No partner in life.. no cute tiny house.. the possibility of living life alone, and that terrified me.
I had to surrender that to the Lord. I had to surrender my fantasy life.
Giving that to the Lord was not easy, but he just kept saying to me that this is not for right now. This is not for right now.
I am giving it to him everyday.
But all that space that my dreams were taking up, can now be used to live my reality. Yesterday, I felt what it was like. I felt what it was like to live and it was incredible. It felt unreal.. like I was picked up and dropped into a national geographic magazine. I kept repeating, “is this real? IS THIS REAL?” And the cool thing was.. that it was real. This is my life and this is what it feels like to live it.
I am here and I am living life. It is better than anything I could ever imagine. The Lord has more for us than we could ever ‘dream up’ for ourselves and for that I am grateful.
