It’s so easy to point out the things that you don’t like about yourself. I am a very loving and caring person. That’s just who I am. The thing is, I feel like I care too much. I care too much on what people think of me and it makes me uncomfortable with myself. Am I being too much? Am I annoying them?
It’s the reason behind why I can’t get really close to people.
It’s the reason I can’t date.
It’s the reason why my outgoing personality is hiding behind a painfully shy and awkward exterior.
Satan knows I love people. He knows that people can also break me. I know this isn’t about the world race at all, but I feel like these blogs are meant to make us vulnerable and open to what is going to happen on the race. This is something that I need to work on and I have a feeling my teammates will call me out on it immediately. I hear they give constructive criticism which makes me nervous because I’m a wee bit of a wimp.
I just pray that God can help me understand why he made me the way I am. I feel like I have a lot to give, but half the time I’m too scared to give it to people.
My prayer for myself as I get ready for the race is boldness.
If anyone actually reads this, pray that for me.
