For the past eighteen years of my life, my relationship with God is best described as a roller coaster- and a pretty boring one at that. If I didn’t get blessed with such an amazing Church, youth group, mentors, mom, etc., my relationship with God would be best described as a railroad track- completely flat. I’ve had those spiritual highs after long conversations at coffee, incredible mission trips, youth retreats, bible studies, taco and root beer float dinners, summer camps… but I haven’t been able to hold on to it.
Lucky for me, I was never quite too worried about it. Why would I be? I had been planning to go on the World Race since freshman year- and how could you not become the PERFECT Christian after spending 9 months in third world countries??
Well, now I’m here… it’s day 5 in the Dominican Republic… and I was wrong about ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING (imagine that). Yes, I have been involved in Church my whole life and learned sooooo much about Him. But I am lacking something that is equally, if not, far more important- a personal relationship between myself and God. My knowledge goes far beyond my experiences with God. I am not walking the way I need to, I am not obeying the way He commands, I am not saying “yes God” the way I crave so badly to.
I am sitting in a hammock in the mountains of the Dominican Republic and realizing that I am at square one with God. I desire so badly to have this amazing, personal, unbreakable relationship with God… but I don’t even know where to begin to get to that place.
Please pray for me as I start at square one with God. I know this is going to be hard, but good… but really hard.
