Hello beautiful people. It has been a hot minute. I have been home for two whole months!
This is a blog I have been avoiding writing for a long time. Mostly because I didn’t know what to say or felt that I didn’t have adequate enough words to say it. Also, I didn’t really know how to seal this season of my life with the gratitude, joy, and bittersweetness it deserves. This year I fell in love with the Holy of Holies. I fell in love with his nature, His Kingdom, and the way He does things. I decided I not only wanted to, but will give everything to Him. I also fell in love with people. His people. I fell in love with the Church and actually got to walk out what it means to BE the Church. Godly community is, as my dear friend Clarissa would say, “a glimpse of Heaven.” I fell in love with locals, kids, and ministries that I worked with all over the world. I still think about them all the time. I wonder how they are doing. I miss them. I pray for them, knowing I left some of them in situations I wished so badly I could remove them. I consider it the heaviest honor to have family and homes all over the world.
Needless to say, I have realized I will never have all the RIGHT words to say to have the “perfect closure.” And that is okay! Closure is overrated. Sometimes it isn’t a moment where everything clicks. Sometimes it’s a collection of moments, conversations, tears, laughter and days that all string together until one day, it just hits you. That season of my life is over, and it was beautiful. God, I am ready to embrace what you have for me next.
Ah yes, and that leads me to announce some exciting! Stuff! “What are you doing now?” You might ask. Well.. from September through December I will be doing what is called Alumni Team Leading for the World Race. As previously stated, I fell in love so hard while I was on the Race. Not because the World Race is a magical program that transformed my life, but because the Lord is a radical God who happened to use the World Race as an avenue so that HE could transform my life. My heartbeat now is, “I just want to give this freedom away.”
In January of this year, my squad mentor invited me to be a part of the leadership team for a new Gap Year Squad. I prayed about it for the next five months and just wanted so badly for the Lord to write for me on the wall what He wanted me to do. Sometimes He works like that, but sometimes, He asks us to take what we have, trust the discernment and the Holy Spirit He’s given us, and take a leap of faith. He wasn’t waiting for me to make a wrong move. He was inviting me to trust both Him and the Holy Spirit inside of me. My discernment said yes with peace and joy. So I said yes without the giant sign from the Lord. The smaller the sign, the greater the trust it takes to say yes.
So what exactly is Alumni Team Leading?
I will be going back to Thailand and Malaysia with a new Gap Year Squad to do ministry with them, set an atmosphere of what it looks like to walk with the Lord, and leading and discipling a team of six women!!!!!!
My Alumni Team Leader’s walk with the Lord (shoutout to you, Zib) actually impacted my relationship with the Lord and the way I see Him so much. She walked in a freedom and confidence that I wanted so badly, and the Lord has so beautifully walked me into MORE freedom, MORE confidence, and MORE identity this year. My passion is to walk with other people while also still walking with the Lord. Honestly, there have been times that I have felt so inadequate to lead people, but the Holy Spirit reminds me that His power is made perfect in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). So I say let’s freaking go, God.
In order to go, I need to raise $3,000. The Lord has already been so faithful in this new season of fundraising and I cannot WAIT to see how people get to partner with Him and what He is doing!! Financial giving towards the Mission of God is one of the most life-giving, rewarding things you can ever do with your money. YOU get to help me make disciples that make disciples that make disciples! Every single penny is worth so so much. You can donate through the orange button that says “Donate!” at the top of this page.
“Not that I desire your gifts; what I desire is that more be credited to your account.
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:17 & 19.
This always puts my heart in the right posture when it comes to giving and/or fundraising. God is ultimately the One that meets our need, not people. We just get to add more to our treasures in Heaven. May more be credited to your account! May you be richly rewarded!!! I. LOVE. YOU. PEOPLE. You have blown my mind with your generosity, kindness, and intentionality over and over and over and over again.
In love and gratitude,
KT
(P.S I will be posting a blog about the team of women I’m leading this week!! I LOVE THEM ALREADY)
