Sometimes on the race you don’t always want to do what your told to do. Actually that’s not a race thing it’s a life thing. There has been times here on the race where I don’t always agree with what is taking place. Or really I just don’t have the best attitude to do it at all. There was a night where my team wanted to go to this cave in Lesotho and sleep in it. My attitude in this moment was not the best. I was putting our struggling and differences in the way of actually trying to have a fun night with my team. Because I was focused so much on those negative things I began to let them get the best of me. When they had asked if I wanted to go to the cave I told them no because I didn’t enjoy our time spent together. I was angry and I took it out on them and I didn’t want to be a part of what they had to say and wanted to do. So that night, all 6 members of my team left and went to the cave without me. They begged me to go and still loved me even though I didn’t want to choose them at this time. I stayed back and relaxed that night. When I woke up the next day, I realized that I had just let my team down for a great team time that we could have had. I was putting my problems and feelings above them. After a few weeks I realized that I was not choosing my team like I should have been. I was being miserable and making life hard for them because of the way I was acting. After I realized this, I began to ask for forgiveness and change the ways that I have been acting toward them. As this did take time to process, there was so much good that came out of it. If you were to ask my team how we are doing now, they would say it is the best it has ever been. My team and I will always have our ups and downs, but I’m so grateful that they’re the ones I get to have those moments with.
