What does fully surrendering mean? Does it mean giving JUST your attention to someone? Maybe it means to give up half of your life. No. Surrendering is giving everything up in order to do or partake in something that requires EVERYTHING.
Training camp was a little different than what I though it would be. God needed to tell me something. From Bucket showers, to tent sleep overs. Airport scenarios to mud fights. Eating crickets to ukulele sing alongs. Red dirt to Bugs, sweat to thunderstorms, chaco blisters, sweaty comfortable clothes, foreign meals, no snacks and feeling unloved.
God used all these things to make me feel uncomfortable for 10 days. They made me realize that life isn’t always about me and it’s not going to be. God wanted me to see that in these 10 days, it’s not gonna be easy. I’m not always going to get that food, that comfortable spot to sleep and those friends to like me. But what he told me is that living life fully for him is what matters and what matters is His desire for all the nations to worship and know how truly He loves each and everyone of us.
God used my squad and team to tell me the World Race is exactly what He wanted me to pursue. He showed me that if I would be willing to go, He would provide for me, and care for me throughout the journey. God has done nothing but prove himself to me ever since I put in the application. It is hard to grasp that God wants to send me across the world, but I am not going to doubt Him. It is HIS plan, I am just following it! And I’m ready to go!
I AM FIRST and always a child of the Most High, and I am so unworthy to be a part of the HUGE things God is doing here. As Paul puts it, ‘By the grace of God, I am what I am.’ I am forever humbled by the life that my Lord has gifted to me. The relationships that have been cultivated over the years have been only a testament to Jesus’ words when he says ‘They will know you are my disciples by the way you love each other.’
It’s true that there are many trials and many obstacles to overcome, but God taught me how to be ok with the uncomfortable.
