What is UP?! Only 80 days until this wild ride is OVER. I am excited and dreading the end all at the same time.
Over the past couple weeks I have been praying a lot that God would speak to me more. I want to know from Him what plans He has for me after the Race. I want to hear His voice more clearly. I would pray these things every day and tell God I was willing to do anything to experience more of Him.
Well one day I was praying and God was like, “Have you created more room in your life for me?”. Dang. How did I expect to experience more of Him if I was not making room for Him? I asked Him what that looked like and He asked if I truly trusted Him with every single aspect of my life. I thought about it for a while and was like, “Yeah, I guess…but what exactly does that mean?”. He then asked if I would be willing to give up talking to friends and family, everyone back home and around the world that I have met, as well as all social media. That sounded a bit extreme, but I understood His point. Whenever things get hard or uncomfortable in my life, my go-to thing is talking to someone from back home, or scrolling through Instagram or Facebook. Instead of running to the Lord, I would go to other people, or social media where I could look at other people’s lives instead of working on my own.
I asked God how long He was asking me to fast from all social media and communication with the outside world lol. He clearly said, “until the end of the Race.” WHAT. That’s almost 3 months!! Everyone will forget about me! I will have no friends by the time I get home! What if I miss my mom?!?! All kinds of doubts flooded into my head.
It’s been a week since I had this conversation with the Lord. All week I struggled with God and asked Him if this is really what He wants me to do. One morning I was praying and I asked God, “Are You sure I am hearing from You correctly? What if I just made all of this up?”. He whispered to me like He does, and just said, “You know exactly what I asked you to do.”
Alright God. Let’s go. I deleted Instagram and Facebook. I am still going to be writing blogs. Writing really helps me process what is happening all around me. I’ll ask teammates to post them for me.
Gosh I am excited to go DEEP with God. I am praying big things for this time. I want to hear His voice like never before. I am praying that He would take the blinders off. Let me see the world, His creation, His people, through His eyes. I want Him to speak clearly about my future. I want to grow into the giftings that He has given me. I want to spend sweet time with Him.
So here I go! Next month my team will be in Romania, and then our last country is Spain where we will be walking the Camino. Thank you for following my journey and encouraging me so much. Thank you for your prayers and support. Thank you for choosing to be in my life. I am so thankful for each one of you! See ya back around the world in 80 days!
1 Peter 1: 13-15
So think clearly and exercise self-control. Look forward to the gracious salvation that will come to you when Jesus Christ is revealed to the world. So you must live as God’s obedient children. Don’t slip back into your old ways of living to satisfy your own desires. You didn’t know any better then.
1 Peter 2: 1-3
So get rid of all evil behavior. Be done with all deceit, hypocrisy, jealousy, and all unkind speech. Like new born babies, you must crave pure spiritual milk so that you will grow into a full experience of salvation. Cry out for this nourishment, now that you have had a taste of the Lord’s kindness.
