My time in Haiti is coming to an end. I can’t believe how fast this month has flown by. Just as I was starting to get comfortable and really connect with the people here, it’s time to move on. I pray that the next 10 months would not seem so fast so that I may really embrace this experience. It’s crazy how much the Lord has taught me in just one month. My biggest goal this year was to become more intimate in my relationship with the Lord. Month one has already opened up so many doors. Coming back to Haiti where my love for missions all started has been super special. Before leaving the states, there was definitely some doubt surrounding my mind. I felt the pressure of the world in my hands that it was now my responsibility to go make disciples of all nations… that’s a heavy responsibility to carry. I felt so inadequately prepared. How could “I”, a broken individual who has never even read the whole Bible before or even brought anyone to Christ, go out and make disciples of 11 different nations. My prayer life was barley in existence, I doubted the possibility of ever being able to hear Gods voice and yet here I am setting out on this grand adventure.
Although I doubted my own abilities, God has revealed to me that He equips all those He has called to do His work. I no longer hold the pressure of feeling like it’s all up to me because really it is God who works through us so that we may have the wisdom, strength, and courage to carry out His calling for our lives. Before leaving, this lesson seemed so simple in my mind, but the Lord has given me a new revelation on what it really means. So if you’re looking at my life and thinking “wow she is so brave”, it is not my own ability that makes me courageous and strong but rather my obedience and trust in the Lord.
During this month, I have grown tremendously in my prayer life, I am continually blown away by what the Bible is teaching me, and I am learning how to discern the voice of the Lord. For a while I was frustrated that I was not seeing the growth that I wanted, but I have realized that God works in His own timing, not mine. I am continually reminding myself that my patient endurance will pay off. Redefining the idea that there is no end destination in our relationship with the Lord has been challenging for me.
On Wednesday we are off the the Dominican Republic! Yay!! Please pray for safe travels!
Also for those who are wondering, I have met my February deadline of $13,000…Praise God! $4,566 left to go until I am fully funded.! If you feel led to support my journey please use the donate button at the top of my page (:
Below is also a video of my month in Haiti! It is one second for every day spent here (:
