If you know me well, then you will know that I’m a planner. Sometimes to the extent of becoming a worrier. I used to take pride in the fact that I loved to have a plan, and a good head on my shoulders.
But lately, God has been showing me the opposite is true.
The past month or so, I’ve been so concerned about my future, and about what the next step was after the race. It was all I could think about, and all I could talk about. I’m a verbal processor, so if I’m nervous about something, you will here about it.
And my team heard all about my worries for the future. Which paths I was thinking about, but I wasn’t sure if God wanted me to go that way. Oh and this other path. Ooh. And this one. But I still don’t know if God wants any of these for my life.
My teammates would listen graciously, and encourage me to pray about it, and trust God. He will show me the way to go.
And I wanted to. It’s easy to say you trust God. But in truth, trusting God with my future really scared me.
I don’t have any control over my future, but worrying about made it seem like I did. Cause I was thinking about it. And if something came up, I would be ready.
During my Jesus time, this is what he said to me.
“Do you trust me? Do you believe that I’m powerful enough to communicate with you? To tell you and show you the path I have laid for you. Don’t keep running in circles. I will show you. You are trying to carry a giant future in your small hands. Let me carry it. My hands are much bigger.”
His hands are much bigger. And He is for me. He knows the plans he has for me. And he is trustworthy.
So, here I am, Lord. Doing a giant trustfall. Because I know you will catch me.
Isaiah 41:13
For I am the Lord your God who takes your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Isaiah 42:6
I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness. I will take hold of your hand.
Isaiah 42:16
I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them. I will turn darkness into light before them and make rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.
Isaiah 41:10
So, do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am with you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 49:15-16
Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you in the palm of my hands;
