God woke me up, just now. I say such bold things because I believe such bold things. I believe that God speaks to me. Not because I am great… but because He is. God woke me up, because there was an urgency to write this. So here I am. I’m humbled and honored that He loves me so much He chooses to speak to me, and if I am being completely honest… I’m surprised I was willing to listen. And if being completely uncensored… I owe God a HUGE apology. Sorry for being SO self-centered. May I be so bold to say “change my heart.”
For many years, maybe my whole life, I have been hesitant about God… with God. I held back my faith, in actions and through words, because it’s different. In most cases I held back for fear of rejection, in rare cases, a fear of acceptance. What if I were one of those radical Jesus freaks? Those who were “freaks” would accept me and those who were “normal” would reject me. No matter what crowd you are in… your still an outcast to the others. I challenge those who crave a life of normality and acceptance, yet uniqueness to come over to the Jesus-side. I’m not a freak and I am by far normal… I’m living with a purpose. God provides my ultimate acceptance… and my ultimate adventure.
God is calling me to live out a bold life. He is not a God of fear… but of a sound mind, not of confusion but of peace. I often get wrapped up in acceptance and rejection distractions that I miss out on the boldness God calls me to. I have missed so much of God’s “awe” in my life because I was too focused on me.
This next year is about God… and others… not me. I want to serve, and love on others; my spotlight has been focused internally for a long time. My excuses are over; I have found redemption, forgiveness and freedom in Christ. Let’s move forward and share the good news about the love, acceptance and the boldness of Christ.
