I am His and He is mine. He is my beloved and I am beloved by Him. He knows my inter most darkest secrets and desires. He seeks my heart and longs to know me more, he wants to be my friend forever. He wants a relationship with me, His favorite.
I’m sitting on my bed in a hostel in Malawi. Lately I have had such a desire to hear from God in different ways and to be in dialogue with him on a constant basis. I just recently started to study the art of listening prayer, because it’s not something that comes naturally to me. As I was sitting here reading my bible and journaling, I asked the Lord to audibly speak to me. Now, never really putting much thought into this, I wasn’t sure how it would all play out. I starting to ask Him to speak truths over me and I promised to declare them over myself. Right then my hand picked up my pen and started writing..
“I am desired, transparent, creative, susceptible to change, fearless, passionate, noticed, forgiven, free, known, loved, wanted, seen, true, honest, wise, redeemed, fearfully and wonderfully made.”
I sat there and saw words on the page that I have never thought about myself, words like ‘transparent,’ ‘fearfully and wonderfully made’ and ‘noticed.’ I then asked a question that I figured would be all in fun and games.
For months now I’ve been thinking about getting a tattoo on my left forearm but haven’t decided what I wanted it to say. I knew I wanted it to be a part of who I am in Christ, but something I truly believed about myself as well. I’ve been thinking of things like, “New Creation” or, “Saved by Grace.” It wasn’t more than seconds later when I asked God the question of what word I should use, when immediately the word ‘beloved’ popped up into my head. I typed it up in my phone to see the definition. Right when I read, “dearly loved.” tears flew down my face. He, the Creator of the world, whispered to me how much he adores and treasures me – how much he loves me. To feel the love of the father is the most amazing experience I’ve ever had. It’s so freeing and beautiful. It’s so pure and sincere. It’s unconditional. Today was a breakthrough in my relationship with Jesus. All I want to do is spend all my time with Him.
Beloved- I am His and He is mine, Forever.
-December 30th, 2014
