?“What are you going to do after the Race?”
It’s the question that reverberates through my mind most
often and that I’m asked most often.
I’ve spent hours thinking about it, weighing my different
options, dreaming up options I hadn’t thought of yet. I’ve come up with many
different ideas, and one of them might be the one for me, but in my heart, I
don’t believe that I’ve yet discovered the thing that is for me.
Nevertheless, it seems crazy not to have a plan by this
point, so I started working on applications for some of these “almost” options
that I had. They were my back-ups in case the right thing didn’t show up, or
show up as quickly as I wanted it to.
But a few days ago, I stopped pursuing these back-up plans
for two reasons. One, it was stressing me out and distracting me from giving
myself fully to the last month and a half of this trip and with my squadmates.
And second, it revealed my lack of faith in God to bring the right opportunity
at the right time. (Don’t get me wrong, I intend to do the work required of me.
When I get home, I will throw myself into searching for what God has for me
next. I just am no longer setting up back-up plans that honestly, in my heart,
I don’t really believe are for me.)
Honestly, decision-making is one of the most stressful and
miserable things I ever have to do, and when making big life decisions, the
pressure seems enormous. So I looked up a few verses that remind me to take a
deep breath and stop stressing because God is taking care of things.
Isaiah 42:16 – “I will lead the blind by ways they have not
known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into
light before them and make the rough places smooth.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 – “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and
lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He
will direct your paths.”
Proverbs 16:9 – “In his heart a man plans his course, but
the Lord determines his steps.”
These verses (and many others) remind me that God is
directing my steps (which is good because I stink at it). And I’m happy to be
stretching my faith by trusting in God instead of in my back-up plans. One
small step towards trusting in God instead of in myself or my circumstances.
Thanks for journeying with me!
Katie
