Valentines Day…a day that usually reminds me how alone I am. This year is different though as I am surround by my 50 squad-mates. I started the morning off by making crepes for 18 of my lady squad-mates that we served with nutella and strawberries. The day was then spent getting coffee with a dear friend, followed by an afternoon of wondering the streets with my team. On our adventure we happened upon a tiny little gift shop. I asked if we could stop by to look for paper. Ten minutes later we were still there talking to the lady who owns it. Her name is Gita. She blessed us with her friendship and a handmade felt key chain. What a perfect reminder of pure and true love.
After getting back I took a quick moment to escape to the roof for some alone time….of course I knew this was only made “alone” time by putting my headphones in as there was bound to be at least 3 other people up there. But alas I walk up the staircase to find the roof completely empty. For two whole minutes I was able to be completely alone. Except for those two minutes I new for certain that the loneliness that once filled my soul, was gone…for I will never truly be alone ever again.
Before the World Race my heart looked like a piece of swiss cheese. I knew God. He and I were friends, but He did not fill my soul. There were very real parts of me that were empty. The light had not yet reached those dark places. My relationship with God was very surface level.
Then over debrief something switched. God was no longer a distant friend, but the LOVE OF MY LIFE. Our squad coach Lisa put Him in a new light, in a light that would fill each one of my holes. Through His Spirit He fills my entire soul, even the places that are a broken mess.
This is only the beginning. A relationship takes constant work, but when you know it is real that work becomes so much more worth the struggle. God’s love is NOT for the perfect. Actually the more holes the better His light will shine through you. If on this Valentines Day you find yourself alone know that God loves every single part of you, even if you don’t believe in His love, it is there.
