Month one went as quickly as it came. It is now month two and we have been in Nepal since Tuesday. Most of the time I feel as though I am living in a dream, and constantly have to wake myself up to the reality of where I am.
This first week of month two has been what is called debrief. This is a time to decompress, rejuvenate, and spend time with our squad. Our squad mentor and coaches flew out to spend this week with us. We are blessed to have some seriously amazing leaders who speak so much life and love into our squad.
Yet with all this goodness there are very real struggles of staying focused. It was so easy last month when we were in such a quiet place. This month though we are in a busy city. For this week we have been in one of the more touristy areas of Kathmandu…there is more shopping then you can imagine and yummy food all over the place. As wonderful as all of this can be, I have wrestled with being distracted and feeling distant from God. I kept putting thing after thing in front of my relationship with Him.
Then He called me to be still. We as Christians find it so easy to always strive to be better. The crazy part is our God is not one of how many good things you do or do not do. All He wants is a personal relationship with you.
My heart is broken over how so many of our churches seem to misunderstand this concept. It skews what Christianity is supposed to be, and drives so many people from knowing the TRUE goodness of God.
This fact strikes a deep chord in my heart. As soon as I sat still God spoke a calling into my life that is something that had only been a thought. It is for me to break the chains of religion within my own community at home. I have very little to no clue what this means, but it is going to be the forefront of my prayers over these next 10 months. This is something that I will update you all on as God continues to reveal His plans. My heart is on fire though. He is doing something huge in my life and oh do I feel it.
