Funding updates: I am 25% fundrasied!!!! Which means I am 1/4 my way to my Sept deadline! Thank you to everyone who is praying and donating! You guys are awesome!
Life Update: So, there is a reason for my lack of blogging recently and I’d like to explain myself. My words are important to me, Ive always enjoyed writing essays for school and letters to people I love, but once I started reading other Racers blogs in December I began to notice their ability to express their emotions perfectly into words. I began to doubt my ability to do one of the things I love, only when I began to doubt my writing abilities I also began to doubt my ability to be a Racer and my ability to represent God in the way that He deserves. After a month or so of doubting my abilities and feeling as if I weren’t enough for my friends, the Race and worst of all God. Through prayer and the insightful words of friends, I have been reminded that God does not call and then abandon. He will live in me and He will speak through me here at home and on the field .Jesus is not going to let me live an unsatisfying life if I am living through Him. Jesus will fill my cup, so that I can pour out and I shouldn’t doubt myself because to doubt myself is doubt God’s creation, and God does not make mistakes He didnt mess up when He didnt give me elegant speaking abilities, He wasn’t messing up when He made me look the way I do. Look outside and you can see, He makes only beautiful things and He did not mess up when He made you and He did not mess up when He made me.
I am not a mistake, Im not junk, Im not forgotten or alone or ugly or untalented. I am a creation of God, He sent time on me and molded me exactly how He wanted, He didnt care about the ways of the world when He made me. He made me for Him and only Him.
