Never have I felt so alive. So Paper thin, light as a feather, dancing passionately to the fast paced drum beats. I didn’t know I was suffocating until I took that breath of surrender to God. Yelling out loud truths about Jesus and His mind boggling reality and presence. I didn’t know I was chained to fear, and routine, and shame and I danced the shackles right off my body. I could feel what was happening in my spiritual in my physical. I have never been so alive, so paper thin, so light.
One year ago I stood in this very room at the Adventures in Missions head quarters for training before my, recently finished, World Race. Jesus knew that this week at Project Search Light I was going to be healed. He had laid out this very week before my parents could have ever thought me up.
Through prophecy and fellowship and encouragement and prayer, this has easily been one of the most important weeks of my race. Last night I stood in the middle of the worship and every single past racer in the room laid hands on me. It’s an indescribable power and feeling to be completely covered in the hands of those who love you and to hear prayers so loud I couldn’t hear myself praying out loud. His power was in the room, in my heart.
It’ll change you. The power of God will change you and it will make Him real. Feeling the presence of God through prayer is physical proof that God does not only exist, but that He knows your name and He will fill the room and fill your heart and suddenly before you realize it you’re dancing and crying and everything in life is okay, but it’s more than okay because no longer are you depending on the situations of this world but God has invited you to trust in His sovereignty and mystery and now there is nothing stopping you, because you feel it. It’s real, you’re alive, you’re thin and light, your feet a barely touching the ground.
This week I felt was its like to be alive and to have full lungs. I felt my heart race before I stepped out in boldness to share the Lords heart for a room of strangers. I looked at my squad mates and I saw the heart of Jesus being represented through them. I’m alive and and I can breath again, and I’m taking this new found power and faith home with me. Taking it to my present season and my next one.
