One of my yoga instructors, Stephanie lent me a book, The Alchemist a month or so before I left for the race in January. I used to LOVE reading
when I was younger; I was actually a pretty big book worm until I hit middle school, kids didn’t consider it cool
to read therefore I stopped. I was very concerned during adolescence about what people thought of me; not reading (unless it was required), affected me in a lot of ways- one of them being, my attention span.
Ironically, I read The Alchemist and it's about this Shepard in search of treasure, thinking his treasure is off in this distant land; he travels the world,
and in the last chapter of the novel, he discovers that his treasure was in the exact place he started off at… That everything he needed was right where he left off at.
And as the months go on, I am starting to realize and discover that the more of the world I see, the more I just want to be back where I started (geographically of course).
Scarily,the more I pray for God to just change my heart, the more I want to settle down… which is the most frightening, terrifying, complete three-sixty realm of mind . TO BE HONEST, I am scared to death right now because everything I have ever clung to, He is gently taking it away, removing it from my life.Become a wife? Yikes. Children – Lord, no. And I can just feel the Lord laughing at me
I have always scoffed at the idea of marriage, hated men, and my stomach churned at the idea of children and wedding bells. I have always prided myself on being an adventure
seeker, being enchanted with the idea of being free- not being tied down. I always envisioned myself as a keen business woman, being involved in the high-fashion world.. AND NOW- God
is transforming my mind and all I want to do is go back to school, get my masters ( in Speech Pathology) and settle down. It’s like a sick joke. I am freaking out, a quarter- life crisis. PLEASE PRAY (LOL)!.
But what I am becoming fully aware of is:
BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PRAY FOR OR YOU MIGHT JUST GET IT.
And of course the Lord laid on my heart Ephesians 5. Peace be with you friends, AMEN.
