Please know that as I write this I know no one will believe it… It is difficult for me to fully understand it all myself… But I promise you it is completely true in its entirety.
Some days ago our ministry host shared with us the most peculiar work we were to accomplish that day. He announced it to be faith day which meant that we would be going out into the city carrying nothing but the clothes on our backs and a water bottle…
“God will provide all that you need,” He said.
This was not an exercise I was looking forward to at all. There is a God above who loves me truly this I believe. Testing his provision seemed strange to me because in my mind he has already provided my daily bread. He has gifted me with supporters who have sent me half way around the world. He has given me the ability to earn money to provide for myself on the daily and has placed people in my life who’s love has broken down walls. As all these thoughts mulled around in my head I begin to ask myself If I did not believe in a God who could perform the miraculous. To which I found that I do… I just block it from eyes in an effort to not be disappointed. I found a passive spirit lurking within my heart as I looked to the God of the universe afraid of Him not meeting my expectation.
As we went out into the alleys and byways I asked God over and over again who he was and what he had in mind for me that day… Into restaurants and barber shops we wandered…
“What will you show me, Lord?
Faith day…
Are you faithful?”
As the sun sunk lower in the sky our little band of missionaries found ourselves sitting on the floor at the twenty-four hour house of prayer talking about the day. As we sat there airing all the disappointment felt about the day it hit me…
“Are you faithful, Katie?”
“For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him?”
~1 Corinthians 2:16 a
The truth of the matter is God is always faithful. It is I who is not aways able to see far enough into the future to know the mind of Christ and see how he is fighting for me. Always he is knocking out those things set up against me… I had spent the day blinded by my expectations of seeing God impressing me.
Faith day is not always about God showing you how he is a great provider and will work in the hearts of others so that you may eat for a day… Faith day is just that… A day of faith. You won’t know what it looks like until you say ok how am I going to be faithful to you today?
As I walked out of the prayer room on faith day I stood under an archway with four American quarters chilling above my head…
Were they glued?
Were they taped?
Were they magnetized?
Nope…
Someone placed them there by faith…
Believe me?
“He replied, ‘Because you have so little faith, I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, Move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.’”
Matthew 17:20
So here I am with renewed faith unsure what exactly that means but ready to find out.
All for now through the eyes of a storyteller…
