Sorry I really wanted to post pictures of the church we are building with this blog, but the internet is too slow to upload anything.
The Lord put me on my knees this morning right in the middle of making cement. All morning I had felt Him pressing into me to just be on my knees and praying, for what I don’t know exactly. During breakfast I heard “on my knees” over and over in my head. While walking up to our construction site I kept hearing “on my knees” over and over in my head. As we prepared the cement to be mixed I kept hearing “on my knees” over and over and so that was it. Right there in the middle of mixing cement I got down on my knees and prayed. I don’t know how long I was down there for and I don’t remember exactly all that I prayed for I just remember it being a moment alone with God. During all the laughing, talking, shovels, wheel barrels and people moving about it was just God and I. Completely surrounded by His presence, going straight to Him with an open heart and laying down everything I was feeling at the time. He put me in such a place that He reminded me that my job, no matter what, is to go to Him first and to go to Him in this position. This on my knees, open heart, lay it all down position. I have been walking too many steps away from being on my knees and honest with God. How could I forget something so simple. Why do I second guess the things that I tell Him sometimes? He is going to find out sooner or later and He will deal with them whether I want Him to or not, sometimes in ways I am not looking forward to. How silly it is of me not to take EVERYTHING to Him? For His love in abounding and I walk in His grace everyday. In all of this He reminded me what a good job I was doing with my team and to keep bringing things to Him for He will guide the way and equip me with what I need for each circumstance.
After kneeling in prayer for who knows how long I resumed shoveling and making cement, but deep in thought. Thoughts about ministry, my team and my leadership position. Thoughts about LaCama and Guatemala and the remaining weeks we have building this church and loving the community. Its funny how so many things were going through my head, but whenever I was asked what I was thinking of I completely stuttered and couldn’t respond. God has got lots of things going on in my little head and I am just praying that He sorts them out with me, one by one, in time. In time, wow I have so much time to sit and pray with the Lord and sort these things out. Time feels like it is flying by and I am praying so much to remain in the moment. To soak in as much of the moment that I can.
Today before lunch I learned where our next ministry will be. Team Jubilee will be traveling to Nicaragua to work in an orphanage ministry. Right now I only know that this ministry consists of working with orphans, infant care, feeding, gardening, some construction and ministry and evangelical opportunities. We will be joining team Hotmess during the month of November and let me tell you I am so excited to be working along side Christine and her team. She is an incredible woman of God who has been so obedient to Him and His will along this journey. She is an awesome encouragement and truly a priceless sister! I am excited to see how our two teams will work and grow together throughout the month of November. For now though my focus remains here in Guatemala with Pastor Manuel and his family and church community. I can’t help but not want to get too ahead of myself in the next ministry and enjoy my time remaining here in LaCama.
