When I started the process of applying for the World Race and dreaming of what it would be like to be a racer, I knew that life on the race would probably be one of the most challenging things I would ever do.
However, I did not expect all the challenges to come so soon. I was not expecting them to come before I even leave for the field. I was not expecting to find the preparation process being a whole journey in itself. I was not expecting to feel so vulnerable during fundraising. I was not expecting to have racing thoughts about inadequacy and insecurity. But that’s the thing about following Jesus, rarely ever does anything go the way we expect it too. But that’s what makes following Him so worthwhile because He brings us more than we could ever dream of.
In all honesty, as I am looking at the months ahead, it seems impossible. The questions are unending. The waves of uncertainty fill my head constantly. “What if I don’t raise enough? What If there is some one better equipped? What if I miss out? What if…?”
But then I hear it, as I get lost in my thoughts, I hear the gentle, quiet whisper that breathes warm courage into my cold afraid places. “I go before you, and I go with you”.
There it is. I feel like it hits me harder than a brick. Yes, alone I AM inadequate. But that’s the point. I need Jesus. And when I am with Him, that makes me more than adequate to do His will. The very fact that I have placed my trust and my hope in the Lord, and the very fact that I have said, “yes” makes me adequate. I need Him to go before me and I need Him to go with me. I need Him.
“Now to Him who is able to immeasurably more that all we could ask or imagine, according to the power which is at work within us. To Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” Ephesians 3:20
Because no matter if I am successful or not, God is ALWAYS successful. And what He calls, He makes a way for. So this is my humble realization that I can not do this alone. That I am inadequate. But with the Lord takes our impossibles and turns them into opportunities of trust. So here I am, trusting and praying that the Lord will do immeasurably more than all I ask or imagine, because He is far more than able.
Thank you as always for letting my small story be a part of your day and for joining me on this journey,
~Katie
