After
the 9 months I have had, I can’t doubt God’s power, or that He is active in our
lives, or that He does work miracles and wants to, or that He provides. But,
today in church I had an epiphany. As I am getting ready to come home, and
trying to start making plans, I have been putting God back into the little box
I used to keep Him in. The box where I know God does miracles, and I know He is
good, put I really only pull that little box out when I need or want something.
When
thinking about what my life is going to look like after the Race, I have
literally probably considered every option. I started off by thinking about
going on another Race. And then, that evolved into going on the Sex Trafficking
Race. But God said no to both of those (after I gave up worrying about how I
was going to raise the money). The only God has told me about what is coming
after the Race is that I am going to be home for at least a little while, and I
am supposed to be in school. So I have started making my plans with those 2
guidelines in mind.
The
new plan was, go to community college to ease back into school, and find a job
(or two) because after a year of not working, I don’t really even have a bank
account. And then, this morning in church, I realized I don’t need God in my
plan at all. I mean obviously I would still have my relationship with Him, and
ask for His direction in my life, but where is there room for God to work?
Do I need His
help to get into community college?… No
Do I need His help to find a part-time job?… maybe but not
really
Am I having to trust Him to provide?… No, I’m taking care
of that
And obviously God can move in anything, so maybe this is His
plan for me right now. But, whatever it is, I am ready to COMMIT and trust in
Him no matter what that looks like. Excited to see what the next part of my
life brings.
