I like to ask questions. I ask myself questions, other people, and often God. Today I asked, “What is success for me this year Lord?” and I felt Him respond “walking with me.”
That message rang true in my spirit. Success for me is
walking with God. Not doing things for Him, but with Him. Not striving to know more about Him, but to know Him. Here’s an excerpt from my friend Joy’s blog that seems to encapsulate how I’m feeling:
“I am not here to make Christians… I am here to live. As I sat on top of a hill the other day and had some time with the Lord, he kept reminding me, THIS is why you are here. To be with Jesus. To adventure with Jesus. To live with Jesus.
These people, any people, do not need my words (even less my English words, since they speak Espanol, haha), they need to know this Creator God, who has gone to such great pains to display himself and his character in their
world.
My voice is so weak compared to his. The voice of the Lord breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon… so I will speak, of course, when I can… but more importantly, I will walk with Juana down to the river and clap for Jose as he learns to jump rope and throw the frisbee with Migel and I will go about my living… hoping never to think myself capable of eclipsing the grandeur of Gods glorious message, alive all around me, available to all mankind.”
This is what I long for, but honestly I struggle with it. I worry about what others think or that somehow I’ll become lazy and compromise my dreams. I’m excited though because I know this lesson I’m learning will affect how I live the rest of my life. Yay!
