I’m
trying to imagine what it would be like to be her. To have
absolutely nothing in this world. To go to sleep lonely. To wake up
lonely. To live each day lonely. To be abandoned by my parents. To
be rejected by my world. To not even own the clothes on my back. To
have nothing.
To
wonder if you’re special. To wonder if you have purpose. To wonder
if you even matter.
The
life of an orphan blows me away. I cannot comprehend living in a
tiny cement building with 30 other kids. To have two adults
attending everyone. To lay on my foam mattress each night and think
heartbreaking thoughts about my value, my worth and my life.
never have a home to go to. To never have parents to love. To never
have hope.
At
eighteen my beautiful Camilla will be released into this world. Even
the little things she clings to today will be gone. The caretakers
will have moved on to different kids. Her bedroom will be filled
with new orphans. And she’ll have to move forward with nothing in
her pockets. Where will she go? What will she do? Who will care
about her?
My
heart is literally BREAKING this week as I wrestle every day and
night with what I can do. How I can save her from this fate. How I
can show her that’s she’s beautiful. How I can give her true hope.
How I can change her life.
shouldn’t be like this. But it is. And I don’t know what to do, but
I promise you I’m going to do something. I’m going to leave this
world different than I found it. I’m going to CHANGE the lives of
Camillas, Marias and Neeka around this world because I know a God
who empowers me to do so.
that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look
after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from
being polluted by the world [James 1:27].
