Believing that God would provide for me when I didn’t need to rely on Him for every single expense was easy. When I knew that I had a job and my biggest worry was what movie I was going to see that weekend. Now? That’s a different story. Twice I have had to rely on God for large amounts of money and, I will be honest, it was a breeze. Sure I worried about it, but in the end, as I watched the money come in with plenty of time to spare, I wondered why I had worried in the first place. God’s got my back, right?
Yes, He does. But as I have started fundraising and have seen only a little reward for my efforts, I know that this isn’t going to be like the last two times. To start with, it is over three times the amount I have had to raise for one trip. If that’s not daunting enough, it is less than a year before all the money has to be in.
Last year, before I even knew I was going on this trip, God said to me, ‘Do not be afraid to go and let me show you how I can provide for you.’ Well, I wasn’t worried when I applied but now that the full extent of what has to be done has hit me, I am. It’s a daily process, giving my worries and fears to God. Every day, I think about how hopeless this situation looks but I remember that my God is bigger than my situation. He’s bigger than my worries or my fears, or the money I need to raise.
One of my favourite verses in the Bible is 2 Timothy 2:12-
‘If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself.’
There are so many stories and verses in the Bible that back this up. That God shows who He is and that even the most hopeless of situations are nothing to Him. Remember Abraham and Sarah? Or Job? The Israelites who spent 40 years in the desert, yet were never without food or clothing? He provided for these people, performing even the most unlikely of miracles.
Moral of the story: God is always faithful. He has told me that He will provide for me, he has affirmed (many times) that this is where I’m supposed to be, and I know that in the end He will come through for me. Because that’s just who He is.
