While in Atlanta at one of our training sessions the speaker told us a story about his daughter and himself, and it has really been helping me understand the incorrect view i have of my heavenly father and myself.
His daughter was 5 and he wanted to do something to spend more time with her, but didnt know what. He prayed about it, and God gave him the idea to have her help change the oil on his truck. Now the 5 year old girl didn’t know how to change oil, and he didn’t need her help to do it. But that wasn’t the point.
I feel like I am just trying so hard to learn how to change the oil, to be worthy of my father’s invitation, to be useful. Just being there doesn’t seem adequate or good enough for me. I feel unimportant, un-useful, like it is pointless… And here, with all my beautiful and talented sisters, I almost get jealous. They all know how to change oil or are better at it, so it seems they are more qualified and useful than i am. Now, I know this isn’t the case, “God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called”, right? But I don’t know how to change this way of thinking…
We have been very blessed for our first couple days here in San Salvador, El Salvador. as the week and month continues we will be starting to travel and follow some leads and contacts that we have made in search of ministry partners for future World Racers.
Please pray for me to be able to rest in my father’s love, and stop trying to change who i am to fit “God’s needs”, when God already made me to fit into a perfect plan that is already completed. Easy to say, hard to understand.
