Today, after a long, fulfilling conversation with Daniella and Anabelle they prayed for me. As they prayed, the Holy Spirit showed me something:
Imagine someone walking a LOT of dogs. I know you can picture it. The person trotting quickly down the sidewalk, unbalanced by the dogs both pulling him or her forward and even a few dragging their feet behind.
God revealed that this was me.
But instead of walking dogs, I was walking demons.
Each demon was leashed to me with a glowing chain wrapped around my heart. Ugly, gray creatures they were. As I walked down a street they pulled and jerked me in every direction. Instead of walking confidently down the road, I was staggering under the influence of my sins.
I hear the voice of the Lord and I know when He tells me to pray for someone or talk to someone about Jesus. But about half of the time, I don’t obey.
I see this happening in my vision too. A person sitting on the side of the road needing prayer. I move toward them, but the demons are too strong. They jerk me back, screeching and pulling me away.
Insecurities!
Fear!
Doubts!
As Daniella began praying for me, I saw myself like this. But while she continued, I saw Jesus. He walked up to me and reached inside my chest. Gently, He untied and broke the chains from my heart. One by one the demons detached from me, no longer constricting my heart or pulling me from God’s will.
I was free!!!!!
…or so I thought.
I looked down at my hands and saw that I was still holding the leashes of a few more demons. These were the sins I like. These were the demons I disguise as friends.
I held tightly to the leashes, not fulling willing to give up my guilty pleasures or bad habits.
Jesus just stood there. These were the sins I had to let go of by myself. He made a motion for me to open my hands. I held on for a while, but slowly loosened my grip and stood in front of Jesus with my palms up. I let go of my demons.
Now obviously not all my sins and demons are gone in one prayer, but I see the Lord’s will for my life. He desires to untangle the chains from my heart and to help me open my hands and receive freedom.
Psalm 107:13-16
Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He brought them out of darkness, the utter darkness, and broke away their chains. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind, for he breaks down gates of bronze and cuts through bars of iron.
