Blogging! Such a simple concept. All you have to do is write about your experiences. But what if it is negative? What if you are tired and have nothing positive to say?
When I was in South Africa I almost ate a whole jar of peanut butter in one sitting. I basically overdosed on peanut butter. My stomach was in so much pain. The thought of peanut butter made me sick.
Here lately I have felt like I am overdosing on Christians. I feel like I am trying to reach an expectation that is too high for me to reach. Being Jesus in the flesh. I struggle with that constantly. My tongue and my thoughts are frequently not Jesus like. I am constantly reminded of that, and held accountable. I want to run and scream. Turn back to a more comfortable life. Slip and fall and not have a discussion or intervention about it. Why can I not climb to the top where so many around me are? I have never been in an environment where your everyday is focused on glorifying God. I feel like I am suffocating. I strive to be that person everyday that God created me to be. But all too often I slip and fall short.
Answer me when I call to you,
O God who declares me innocent.
Free me from my troubles.
Have mercy on me and hear my prayer.
Psalm 4:1
