Everyone always tells me that the World Race is all about being vulnerable. Being able to be vulnerable about things so that you can share how Jesus worked through you and that situation. Well let me just be vulnerable with you all today because I really feel the Lord wanting me to share this all.
I wish I was kidding when I say this but this week has been one of the hardest weeks yet when it comes to preparing for the race. The enemy is pushing on each and every side of me. Making me feel anxiety that I haven’t felt in a long time. Making me feel depressed and not wanting to do very much. Reminding me of things that I have forgiven people for doing. Making me feel “helpless” and like I am so alone. Trying to scare me about the race and make me feel like I am not cut out for this and that I should just quit. Trying to make me nervous about raising all of the funds in time to go on the race. Trying to speak into my life that it is impossible to complete all the things that need to be done before I leave in a month. Making me feel like I am not worthy in the Lord’s eyes and making me feel like I’m not beautiful to Jesus.
To be blunt about it all, the enemy is placing into my mind
LIES
John 10:10
So as I sit here thanking Jesus for all He has done for me these are the truths He has reminded me of and told me to cling to
I am loved
I am wanted
I am called
I am not helpless
I am not alone, EVER
He has the world at His finger tips and will not leave me stranded
I am His hands and feet here on earth
Song of Songs 4:7
He will fight for me
Only through the Lord will I have the strength that I need
Do not fear because He is with me
The list goes on and on and on. The Lord knows our hearts more than we know our hearts.
I like to say I know myself but in reality I only know the version of myself that I have made. The Lord knows the TRUE me and the Lord is slowly revealing the things that He sees as truths about me and showing me the lies that the enemy has spoken into my head.
The Lord wants me to know so badly how much He loves me. How much He wants to use me to speak to the nations that He has made.
The enemy has and will do ALL that can be done to make me discouraged. To make me feel inadequate and unworthy. The enemy will do all that is possible to speak lies and push me straight down to the ground.
When the enemy pushes me down, let me tell you I push back!
THE LORD HAS ALREADY WON GUYS
Isaiah 54:10
Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.
The Lord is fighting on my behalf. Though the enemy is pushing an pushing
the Lord is saying “I got this Kate, I’ve got this all“
Thank you Jesus for your unending faithfulness to me.
SO EVERYONE
Being vulnerable is hard.
It is not easy to put yourself out there and say this is what is going on in my life but it it so rewarding to be able to say YES this is all happening and YES it stinks so bad
BUT
my God has got my back
and
He is fighting for me
He is rooting me on
He is my rock and the only rock that I need
He is my supporter
He pulled me OUT
My God is so faithful to me and He knows all that there is to know about me!
WOW how awesome is that?
God knows what I need. He knows when I need it and how I need it to be told to me.
Thank you Jesus for loving and cheering me on!
YOU HAVE ALREADY WON LORD!!!
If anyone would like to be in prayer for me before I leave here are some specific prayer request..
As I’m getting ready to leave I just want prayer that my boldness will grow.
That in every situation that Jesus needs me to speak, I will speak and every situation that He needs me to keep my mouth shut, I will do so.
That all funds needed to leave will come in on time and all glory to Jesus because I can’t do this on my own guys!
Thank you all so much for the unending support!
God is so good!
I leave in exactly 1 month and 3 days and will be in route to Cambodia!
Please help me reach the $15,000 goal!
Thank you all again!
LOVE ALWAYS,
Your gal Kate
