Sometimes I have to take a step back and think about all that the Lord has placed in front of me. Sometimes I forget that I am here in Cambodia for bigger things then I have imagined. The Lord is working in the underlying things that I can’t see on the surface. Today a man came up to my team and I. He was mute and didn’t have a way to talk to us other then hand motions. It broke my heart to see that he couldn’t talk to us even though he was trying so hard. In the very moment I was saying to the Lord how I just want to know his name. As I said that the Lord spoke something to me that is so true and really rocked my heart. The Lord told me that I don’t need to know everyones name to be able to lift them up to Him. He told me that He knows their name, He knows their face, He knows every single intricate thing about them. It was kind of mind blowing thing. I know Jesus knows us all by name and I know He made each of us but just to be reminded of it in that specific moment really just rocked my heart. The knows each and every person in this country and every other country too. It is so encouraging to be able to pray about someone, not knowing their name or anything about them but Jesus right off the bat knows who you are talking about. It is so amazing. He love for us is so unimaginable and so big it impossible to fully comprehend. My last blog was about how I didn’t know why Jesus had me here or what He needs me to do. In ways I am still learning how God wants to use me, and that is ok. Yet the Lord spoke something to me which just also really rocked my heart. The Lord has called me here for multiple different reasons. He has called me to love each person I come in contact with. He has called me to speak life into these peoples lives. He has called me to build relationships with people, to gain peoples trust. He has called me to show what it is like to be loved by Jesus and what it is like to love like Jesus. He has called me to be bold. He has called me to be courageous. He has called me to be patient and to learn how to go with the flow, to be flexible in schedules. He has called me to have grace for people. He has called me to listen. Listen to peoples hearts, listen to peoples stories. He has called me to slow down in each day and not to be so much in a rush that I forget to sit and be still. He has called me to be full of joy all the time and be so overflowing with His joy that I can pour into others. And one of the most important things that I am learning while I am here is who I belong to. The Lord has been teaching me that I am called, I am chosen, He has called me by name to come here and just that in those perfect words are enough for me. I don’t know what the days to come will look like and that is ok with me. I am learning to be ok with not knowing all the details. I am learning that it is ok to not be fully ok. I am learning and just that is good for me. Today I am blessed to be able to go and teach english to little Cambodian children and I am so excited. I am so excited to be able to be the light of Jesus in their lives. I am so excited to the weeks to come. I am so excited to learn more about who Jesus is. I am still working each day to have the relationship with Jesus that I need and I love that. I love that it isn’t easy and yet in every situation it proves the statement “anything worth having is worth fighting for” is so true. Jesus is worthing fighting for. Loving Jesus is worth fighting for.
Thank you all for staying up to date with what is going on here. I challenge you all to “slow down today”. Take time with Jesus, let Him pour life into you so you can pour into others. Take time to listen to others today. Listen with your heart and truly hear what they are saying. I challenge you to be slow to anger but in every situation radiate joy. God is so good. Don’t forget to thank Him for another day and make the absolute best of it.
