I got married! – October 23
AAAGGH!!!! I can’t believe it!!! I actually got married and it was the best decision of my life! He has so many characteristics you would expect out of an amazing husband. He is considerate, loving, thoughtful, and he shows me how much he loves me everyday. Yesterday, we went dancing and it was so incredible. It felt like one of those cheesy romance novels that every girl dreams to be apart of. I know we are only in the honeymoon phase but I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with him!
On Monday, we went to our secret place. It’s a beautiful field of flowers on top of a mountain. It’s the most beautiful views. Try and imagine the most beautiful mountains you’ve ever seen, covered with the most beautiful flowers you have ever seen (my explanation doesn’t do it justice). I am in awe of God’s creativity and beauty when I come here. Anyways, when we got to the spot, he took me in his strong arms and we started dancing. He is the most amazing dancer. I felt so safe in his arms I can’t even explain it. It was so sweet that the first thing he wanted to do with me is dance, because he knows how much I have been missing dance, and my dream to go dancing with my husband. While we were dancing he was talking to me; saying things like “I love you,” “You are so beautiful to me,” “I love everything about you.” I felt so loved in that moment, love I have never felt before from anyone ever before. Oh, I almost forgot to say his name; my husband’s name is…….. Jesus.
On Monday of this week, some of the team leaders started a study for us girls. It’s about learning how to be married to Jesus. To see Jesus as the only one who can satisfy us, who we want to spend our lives with, who we talk to everyday, and who we have a personal relationship with. To see Jesus as the one who will provide for us, be there through everything and help us become a better person. What more could a girl want?
We just started the study, but that first meeting was so cool. They gave us time to meet Jesus in our secret places with Him. For me, as I mentioned above, it’s a huge field of flowers on top of a mountain, looking over other mountains. It’s the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen. (yes, technically it’s ‘all in my mind;’ but Jesus really takes me there and i’ve never seen him so clearly). As I said, He took me dancing, and while we were dancing, he started talking to me. He told me how much he loved me, how beautiful I was to him, and how happy he was that I was there with him. Such simple words that I have always known, yet never believed until that moment. In this moment, I was consumed with so much love from Jesus, and filled with my own love for him, that I finally started believing the simple truths I’ve known my whole life. I’ve never felt so loved, so valued, or so important.
This simple time with Jesus, probably not even ten minutes, completely changed my relationship with Him. It started the process of understanding that Jesus is truly the only one who can satisfy. That no relationship on earth could ever give me the kind of love I receive from Jesus. As I said before, I have finally begun to believe that I am a BEAUTIFUL daughter of the King. Not only that but I am created in his image and reflect him in such a unique way. I am God’s creation, and His creation is beautiful, so how could I ever be ugly. (that goes for everyone!). I’ve never realized how I have believed America’s view of what a beautfiul woman is. The truth is we are all beautiful in our own way. That may sound so cheesy and cliche but I can’t stress how true this is. Me, you, everyone, are seen by Jesus as so beautiful and he is obsessed with us. He shows us everyday how much he loves us, all we have to do is receive. I pray that everyone feels Jesus’ love the way that I felt his love on Monday.
Psalms 139
Kate:)
