Daughter you’re free…
Free from obligations of this world and what you have put on yourself and what others have put on you.
Follow me.
Apart of doing missions is being away and giving your heart away to different people and places.
Trust me.
Don’t worry about Asher I will take care of him.
Don’t worry about money.
Don’t worry about being away from family and friends.
Don’t worry about the future.
Don’t worry about what people think.
(“We already supported her for missions” “She needs to get a real job”)
Don’t worry about leading.
Enjoy the ride that I’m taking you on.
I’m proud of you.
JUMP IN.
These are the words I heard.
My team and I had gone on a hike that day and I was most likely dehydrated when I went to sleep that night. Despite being exhausted I was woken up in the middle of the night to a feeling of overwhelming thirst. I reluctantly got up out of my tent and went to the hut that our water cooler was in and drank two water bottle full of water. I stumbled back to my tent and lay down. I was wide-awake. I figured instead of lying there annoyed I would pray about some things that I had been feeling anxious about. Sometimes I have a hard time talking to the Lord with all the distractions of the every day life; there is always something else to distract me from praying.
As I lay there listening to the wind blow through the trees around my tent praying my thoughts came flowing from my heart.
I had been asked to lead a world race squad and at the time I thought to myself; “no I can’t…”. I had placed all these expectations on myself and allowed the enemy to pile on my expectations that I felt others had placed on me.
He carefully went through all the reasons I was saying no to the next steps following the race and gave me peace about each one.
This entire month I felt the weight of ending the race and the weight of my future falling on me. As much as I have felt at peace about my post-race life until this month I finally caved in and started feeling anxious and overwhelmed.
In this time with the Lord He removed from my heart the weight of expectations. He revealed to me a roadblock to following His perfect will for my life. He opened my heart and helped me further walk in freedom.
I am applying to lead a world race squad in September of this year. The Lord appears to be leading me in this direction yet I am taking it day-by-day and looking for promptings and nudges from the Holy Spirit.
I am at the hands of the Lord. Stay tuned to where I may end up.
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