I am not perfect and you know every time I feel like I am starting to figure things out, or figure myself out that idea blows up like a stick of dynooomite! In a strange way I am starting to expect and invite this occurrence to happen.
Recently I have had a number of little obstacles and failures cross my path:
~ Got caught in a lie.
~Was told a harsh truth
~Felt distant from two people I love
~Feelings of guilt from my past
~Wanting to not like someone prematurely
~Reaching out to someone from my past and receiving nothing in return
~Judging someone wrongly
These obstacles and failures actually make me feel closer to God; they make me want and need Him more. Realizing in my daily life God is the one true person that stays close by me no matter how many lies I tell, how judgmental I am, and how rejected I feel.
We are all sinful people and thus the reason for our Savior and the one true and loving gift that God has given us in Jesus Christ. Next year is going to bring soo many obstacles, so many emotions, heartbreak, failures, and more failures. Our God, this is His mission I want to remember to pray to Him in every moment of weakness and then in every moment of pure blessings and joy!
In today's devotion it states:
"You can achieve the victorious life through living in deep dependence on Me. People usually associate victory with success: not falling or stumbling, not making mistakes. But those who are successful in their own strength tend to go their own way, forgetting about Me. It is through problems and failure, weakness and neediness that you learn to rely on Me.
True dependence is not simply asking Me to bless what you have decided to do. It is coming to Me with an open mind and heart, inviting Me to plant My desires within you. I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach. You know that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal. Thus begins your journey of profound reliance on Me. It is a faith-walk, taken one step at a time, leaning on Me as much as you need. This is not a path of continual success but of multiple failures. However, each failure is followed by a growth spurt, nourished by increased reliance on Me. Enjoy the blessedness of a victorious life, through deepening your dependence on Me."
Our Lord desires us to need and rely on Him. This next year is going to be a amazing RACE of faith; not asking Him to bless us but asking Him to bless our hearts with His desires and helping us to overcome ourselves and seek Him at all times.
Our God is great.
