Real quick I wanted to share my journal entry for tonight.
1.11.13
"When God is stirring it is hard to sleep", watching a video of a current world racer she says this. Tonight I find this true. This weekend is my fundraiser and my chance to share my mission with my church. All week I have been thinking, processing, talking with friends and mentors regarding what I am going to say. Truthfully I am praying most for God to help me show my heart while staying focused on Him. I know if I am able to do those things I will accomplish His will.
The reason I think I find myself most nervous is because my relationship and love for God has up until this mission has been very inward, only making appearances when approached intentionally. I am now attempting to step outside my comfort zone and do something terrifying to me.. that is to surrender to God and to share my heart and my life to further His Kingdom. I will get up in front of my church family, peers, close friends, and family and share my inner most desires of my heart. This is beyond scary and most exciting all at the same time. Scary in the chance that my thoughts and desires may be looked at and judged as strange and radical. It was a friend though who pointed it out to me that Jesus himself was once looked at as radical and even persecuted for it.
Going into this weekend I am praying God meets me on that stage, gives me the words, uses me for His own, shares my heart for this mission to ultimately serve the ONE who first served me.
Author of my life. I surrender to You, take my life for Your own. Use me. Send me.
Daughter of Yours.
KD
